They're all surrounding we're both hoping Failing slowly, attempting one thing To stand up with dignity, to walk away ________and new lines on my eyes and all the scars upon my head were only meant to spell apologies ________didn't someone say it was impossible to find until you find it on the freeway standing stupid looking blind I'm only here to fall apart You've been angry from the start But I know these train wrecks happen all the time Everything that no one knows You should be hated here by now This was the prettiest lie that I've told tonight its been the prettiest lie that I told all year the unmade bed inside the room where I don't feel comfortable at all where the blankets stare at me for hours and I stare right back so self righteously and it all comes down to composure that's been lost it could be now I don't feel proud so sorry now I'm sorry now never thought if I could do anything right didn't you just say that you were wrong its not a guarantee to all time _______with memories that haunt the past
2. SILENTLY leaving the room
silently leaving the room gathering your thoughts from the floor hopefully no one will hear you silently closing the door down the long stairs to the hall out to the streets where you'll find rumored accounts and hearsay was it me who acted that way is it you who should stay I don't recall ever acting that way was it you who should've stayed the truth was deceiving when the hosts of the evening found the ghost that was bleeding drops of blood from the ceiling someone was laughing, we all prayed for a favor that the ghost would entertain us with some songs and some notes but by the ______ blood covered all the wood floors opened all of the windows and all of the doors broke all of the bottles on streets down below some blood was frozen blessed by wounded love when the ice skates came on the girls finally sang songs to the tunes of the laughter while silently leaving the room
3. so you wanna be a SUPERHERO
there's banging on the wall its 5 a.m., I've got no sleep at all course that's how I might struggle through tomorrow too much time in one day too much time to occupy boring thoughts and boring news boring bedtimes wont tell a single soul that my souls gone its hard to write this song its all a joke its all been wrote down by someone who’s probably dead I might be leaving soon there’s laughter from below its 1 a.m. how could you have known the thoughts of silence that stop me from going back to sleep at night wish I could call someone I love to stop thinking of myself took a long look in the mirror just stare so blankly you were right I cant do this I’m going crazy its my body now you can see how much I’ve become empty I might be leaving soon my dreams are full of what’s not real I’ll fly away and save the world I’ll make you proud someday I just wont be around to see your face my life is full of what’s not here I’ll go away and save myself I’ll make you proud someday I just wont be around to see your face
4.SEPTEMBER come take this heart away
this room has so many windows too many windows I've sat and watched the trees framed to fade outside I hope the seasons treat you well I hope the seasons treat you kind as kind as I never was as comforting as I never could be I saw 2 fake long stemmed roses on the windshield of a car September come please take this heart away all of these windows bring in the cold air I hope you have a ______ to keep you warm warmer than those last times we spoke warmer than the last words we said I'm sure the wind blows gently on you now I hope that nothing will ever remind you of me glue that faded photo on a worn out journal page it reads September come, please take this heart away
5. IGNORANT piece of shit
looking right around you how would I know when you'll decide to jump out of a window falling faster I can imagine the way you'd roll your eyes before you hit the ground telling everyone you know maybe I'll be bad for you maybe you're too good for me everyone is getting________ ________on wear it like a crown I cant believe you called just to say that you were coming down I like the way you rolled your eyes right before you fall down on bended knee will you marry me and on November 16 everything was __________
6.the PIANO song
you felt relief somewhere between the tree and its shade when you go away heavens a distance not a place
7. they'll only MISS YOU when you leave
not another sunrise, another________ stale taste in your mouth you walked away from waking up inside that house depending on the call you've been waiting for felt just like a song you loved so long ago you can hear it now they'll only miss you if you leave so you try and stay away you just might be the light in their eyes when they're subtracting all the times you sat there trying not to say goodbye telephones and postcards with misshaped hearts beside the names I've read this letter for the hundredth time today I've rearranged, analyzed the words try to find something between the lines that wasn't there, at least now I can see that these worn out eyes on torn up pages don't know how I'll fall asleep tonight outside your window awful weather the storm was slowly closing on me when its time to leave
8. an new HOLIDAY (november 16th)
you're whole again now its an obvious reflection can see it in my _________ taking slow dancing lessons nervous laughter filled the voids when I declared you your own holiday your voices sound different though I've heard it before remember the winters that we slept in the car you said your crooked legs don't walk so well I said my eyes were tired and declared you your own holiday you’ll be here
9. FAREWELL to all thse rotten teeth
farewell to all these rotten teeth farewell leave the skin and bones to dry
10. sophisticated fuck princess please LEAVE ME alone
Still be calm what made me like you so yes they have said things about you and yes I see where its true thought you could get all you wanted by just thinking of yourself its not your pretty face that matters and I think you need some help so please just leave me the hell alone cause now I know this isn't at all right how much more times will I have to tell you you try to cry but its just for show you know I know you know ________said things that don't make sense can just make you look like a liar don't convince me that your right about some fear I have of heartache so I'll make you just one promise that I'll never regret this take a long look inside cause right now I'm leaving you
11. low budget slow motion SOUNDTRACK song for the leaving scene
how long will you be gone how soon till you'll come home where is your sweetheart who shelters her from the cold now absence only made our hearts grow colder I will be waiting I'll just keep waiting for you will you remember the feelings and colors bad dreams comforted by warm arms that held you so close will you regret everything that you said or will you hold it close to your heart cause I will be waiting I'll just keep waiting hold on so close, hold on absence only made our hearts grow colder I will be waiting, I'll just keep waiting for you
12. (march 19th 1983) it was PROBABLY GREEN
green takes the leaves snow takes the sea it reminded me how awful things can be trying to recall your tiny voice till the fever breaks it's all that I can hear counting down the numbers of the days was it the same amount of roses on your grave finally I brought myself to sing these words after the snow you can finally see if you could be the trees I would be your leaves after she died, we decided to beleive that her favorite color was probably green on the day she died, in our hearts we did beleive that her favorite color was probably green
